Wednesday, October 14, 2009

"You're drinking from what used to be a candle holder!"- my boyfriend



Now I'm rummaging through pieces of dried mango like I'm looking for the toy at the bottom of the cereal box. I like the saltier ones, and they tend to be the thinner, darker ones. I'm very particular sometimes.

Tomorrow is the day! I am getting prescribed. I'm not sure what to think, I am always a bit hesitant, last time things went terribly wrong. I don't know, for now I'm reallllly into this mango slice.

I've been picking up like twice a week now. Funny.

I just really wanted to say hi, there's no point to this.

Tuesday, October 13, 2009

My new morning routine.

I'm sitting fairly comfortably atop my bed, boyfriend at my right snoring ever-so-softly going through my new morning routine (rhymes with New Jack Swing, yeah, baby!). It appears that I've been having panic attacks on days I catch the T school, last week I completely missed class because I couldn't find anything to wear (I know, right?). So obviously, I've been having a little difficultly lately and I'm trying to fix it.

I woke up a good forty-five minutes to an hour earlier, and now I'm sitting here, pretty OK with what I picked out to wear on the bed in front of me, and am eating cream of wheat, or as my grandmother calls it, toleto (toh-lee-toh) and sipping tea. As usual the damn foreign workers outside my window are making their OBNOXIOUS FUCKING PRESENCE KNOWN. Goddamn, I hate them. Ruining my mornings getting me all outta whack...

Anyways, I'm nursing a small bowl, just to get me on point for the day and then it's off for a very long day consisting of class, interning, and more class until I go home at 10. I have to freaking go to Google tonight, can you believe that? This is going to be so lame... but I digress. Hopefully there will be dinner with my man sandwiched in there. Ok, I gotta get dressed enough dawdling, wish me luck with my slow mornings.

Monday, September 28, 2009

Scheduled pickups.

Lately I've been shouting at my dealer the day before. This helps me on two fronts: no more scrambling around last minute if he's dry and avoids me hoping to pick up at one time and not being able to do so until wayyy later or the next day. Nothings worse than a dry day.

It may seem silly, but I gotta do it. It's like part of my OCD now, I don't know why I never did this before. My dealers probably think I am weird but hey, whatever. I am a working woman with a schedule and I have got to stick to it!

Ok, back to the wire, I just had to share!

Monday, September 21, 2009

Almost October!? Really!?

In a matter of weeks I am going to be 20. Jeez, I am getting old. I'm currently sitting here stoney eating popcorn cause I don't really have any other real food. I think I'll grab some cupcakes before I head over to the Italian's. Ha! That's not dinner either but I'm a hungry bitch! It's this bong I think, it causes me to overeat, or to eat shitty food. I wish I had more Fruit Roll- Ups they're the best stoney snack.

I really hate that I can hear the ball game from my apartment. It does not rule so much. I also really hate that my phone is dead because I thought I left it here but apparently it's at my boyfriends. FAIL. I Also hate that I have homework again. Really? Ugh. I almost missed a deadline last night cause I simply forgot to write things down. I am a FAIL!

So, note to self:

eat better

write things down


More to come...

Monday, September 14, 2009

Slide Chronicles.

Why are slides so damn expensive? I Just bought one for $25, which is more than my lovely bong itself cost. And now that I swirled a little alcohol and salt in there it's hitting better than ever.



I did a MAJOR clean out of my pieces this week. Cleaned them all for over an hour, haha. But my once yellow tinted glass pipe is now slightly orange tinted and clear. Which is good, cause I've been smoking more than ever. Probably not so much now that school is starting up TOMORRROW but still quite a bit. I've been buying every few days and it's slightly ridiculous, I just need to buy larger quantities.

Lately I've been smoking so as not to kill every operator I talk to at my evil insurance company. I'm in a crazy catch-22 with my school, insurance company, and state medicaid. Nearly an hour of each weekday is spent on hold with one of these various peeps (my school is good about not putting you on hold for forever, but DAMN MEDICAID 34 MINUTES? It's taken a lot of patience, much more than I have, so actively smoking a bowl while arguing with these bitches is the only way to make it through it. I'm actually on the phone with them now, trying for the millionth time to remove an insurance policy I didn't (and can't) pay for.

I am at a loss to understand how people cannot be for socialized medicine. In America, the first thing that most people think of when someone is hurt or sick should not be "How will I pay for this?" it should be "Am I/my family member going to be ok?" I think that health care reform in America is essential to its future prosperity. Hello, life is guaranteed in the constitution and denying people the medical attention they need is denying them life. Such as this article in the NY Times.

Also, I finally have a therapist who is ok with me smoking weed, and doesn't blame me, or make it out to be the cause of my mood swings/depression. It's a relief to not have to defend my smoking to at least one person.

Sunday, September 6, 2009

THank God for Apple.

I know, I went M.I.A. again, but my computer just fucking died today and neither myself nor my incredibly-handsome boyfriend have installed internet in our new apartments, I shit you not. We've been living the life watching movies, smoking the herb, and organizing (it's like real life tetris!)

Thank God for the Apple Store, where I've been doing all my important tasks, emailing, and facebooking once a week. Oh, who I am I shitting, it sucks!

The good news is, school is starting, I will be blogging more, and working more, and being even more crazy.

So let's have a stoner discussion to get our minds back in action. See, my morals have been aching supporting companies like Domino's and American Apparel who donate to shitty right wing causes, but there is really no way to escape them, especially being a stoner, Domino's is like an angel in the throws of starvation. It really makes me feel guilty but whats a stoner to do? It's impossible to cut all the bad out....

Saturday, August 22, 2009

Oh Jeez

I step away for a while and Oregon starts farming hemp (could this spur Oregon to become the leader in alternative resources?), Mexico let people start doing drugs, and I break my favorite piece as well as the slide to my bong.

Just like clothing has sizes, slides should too. None of this "uhhh, I think it's like, the width of a BIC pen? Yeah!" and then getting home to find it's just slightly too big and won't slide in.

Lastly,


Idk what's up with the funky tunes, but this is the best way to clean a piece. Coincidentally, rubbing alcohol can set broken eyeshadows and broken powders again. THIS TRICK HAS SAVED ME SO MANY TIMES AND SO MUCH MONEY.

Anyway, It's been a little rough lately. I've been smoking a lot, don't get me wrong, but I've been taking some time to start some counseling and psychotherapy and looking to find a balance in my life again. Not sure where things went awry, but rest assured Blazing life will be resurrected come early to mid September. I'm moving (again, grrr!) but after I'm settled I think it's going to be another hazy semester.

Tuesday, July 28, 2009

This is too good.

http://hightimes.com/news/ht_admin/5686

83% of the 415 people cited this year for public use of marijuana have refused to pay the fine set forth with the citation. GOLDEN. How late-80s/early90s fuck-tha-police.

But really, did we expect this to create a lot of revenue? I mean, as stated in the article, it costs $250 to have an officer appear in court, if someone were actually doing something wrong, I'm sure they'd spend the $250 to have them there, however, they're not and so it goes.

Monday, July 13, 2009

bong bong bong.

I'm sipping on a cup of Yogi tea, watching what feels like my millionth episode of law and order. I've probably watched a dozen episodes today alone. I've been having a rough time hence the hibernation. I spent most of the day smoking in bed, sleeping. Probably not the best thing, but right now it seems pretty comfortable and comforting.

My laziness has lead to some nasty smelling bong water. I'm going to go ahead and say that changing your bong water frequently enough is important. Very important. I can smell it when I pour it down the sink, and it is vulgar. Every 3 bowls is what I've been aiming for, been a little lazy over the last few days but that's one thing I'm going to drag my ass outta bed for.

How often do you change your bong water? Ever? Do you not regret it immensely when you spill it on you and it reeks up everything? Can I get an amen?

Monday, July 6, 2009

Whoops.

Please, please, pleaseeee don't hate me. I went to Texas and kind of fell off the face of the earth. It was a much needed vacation. I visited Lake LBJ, went to Schlitterbahn Resort in New Braunfels, and spent some wonderful time in Corpus Christi just in time for the death of native, Farrah Fawcett. I also bought a new bong.



(Look at mah cool dress) I don't know what to name it, usually I like to name them before I smoke out of them, but I'm having trouble settling on a good name. I was thinking Gustav, because it reminds me of my Klimt print, but I kind of wanted to name it something Texan-y like, fuck I dunno, Bake-os Bill after Pecos Bill or something. Ugh, forget it. Too hard to do when taking bong rips.

I got another bong, but thats for a completely different post. I'm back in Boston now and I have this great dealer who delivers and gives heavy bags. Isn't that a treat! I hope they stay around for a while. Dealers never seem to last longer than a couple of months, if that.

Okay, I'm off to enjoy some alone time in the apartment. Stay stoned.

Friday, June 12, 2009

I'm an awful blogger!

I'm sorry I suck so much lately. After the move things got a little legal, if you know what I mean, so I've been doing damage control/unpacking/working to pay for moving related things. I should have a bit more free time starting next week since my vacation in Texas starts on Thursday.

You'll be happy to know I'm working to perfect a new stoner recipe, Macaroni and Cheese Enchiladas! It's still a work in progress though, I need my grandmother's enchilada sauce recipe to make it just right.

Bud has been delicious. The Queen B left me her grinder and bowls until she moves to uni in London, so I've had a grinder and it's been wonderful. I have been smoking a lot more though... it's kind of give and take I guess.

My kitchen is a mess, missing my boyfriend and working so much has driven me to the ends. I'm in a low, and I'm trying to eat myself out of it (haha, please keep your mind out of the gutter). Buying that whole cheesecake was a mistake. I need to try not to eat anymore of it until I leave. I've been averaging two slices a night. Anyway, so I eat too much and have to lay down and fall asleep before I can blog. Sleeping has been my new favorite activity lately too. I slept from 1 a.m. until 2 p.m. today and I feel... well very hungry, a little stoney, and very reluctant to get up and go to work... in 45 minutes. Gross.

Wednesday, May 27, 2009

Who the hell said stoners were lazy?

BUSY is the name of the game folks. Even with my other half in the LDN I'm constantly on the go. Today is my second day at my internship and I'm sitting here blogging. Ha.

Today I helped shoot promo material, timed another promo shoot, and did little odds and errands. It's actually pretty fun, and a hell of a lot more enjoyable than work.

Tomrrow is my day off. Thank the Lord, I really--


I saved this is in my drafts and it's Saturday now. Tomorrow I'm supposed to move all my stuff out of my room but, I hurt my knee so I don't know exactly how well that's going to go. I need to get someone to help me out... Struggles. I need to do laundry realllllllly badly. Ugh, the stairs are going to kill my knee tomorrow. I don't see how on earth I can get better when I still have to move and work and have no days to rest.

I just called into see about shortening my shift. Wish me luck. I'm going a little bit crazy here. I need to pick up today. The stress of my knee, moving, work and interning is ridiculous. And missing my boyfriend is a full time job that never really gets any easier.

Wait and see as this story develops...

Sunday, May 17, 2009

It's been so long...

Sorry for the hiatus. Finals happened and then my life became my job. Starting next week I'll be interning twice a week, working 43days a week, and hopefully will be doing a whole lot of nothing, smoking and blogging.

After the move that is. I'm moving to a deluxe apartment in the sky. No, really, I got a sick deal to sublet the queen bee's apartment and I'm gonna do it. Move out of this shithole and enjoy my summer living ALONE.

I've been smoking hash for the last week and a half. It was too hard to find weed the last week of school so I just bought the hash... It's great.

Yesterday I went to six flags and got on a rollercoaster stoned. ANTICLIMACTIC. It was so not scary. I was at total peace. I mean, I screamed and shit, and it was a little scary I guess, but cause I was stoned it was just so chill and pleasant, haha. Smoked in the parking lot.

I'm smoking now. I would keep blogging, but I'm in a funk, and I just wanted to let you know I'm alive and will be back in action soon!

Sunday, May 3, 2009

Eh.

I've been a little depressed lately. Shit happens, you know. Not even smoking is bringing me up.

I know the cause of all this is stress, so I'm going to start doing a little 'gardening,' if you catch my drift. Should be fun! In addition to gardening, I'm going to take more time to do things I like (reading magazines for one), light shopping, and cooking. Summers coming up and it looks like this internship thing may fall through, and if I'm just going to be working and chilling, I can at least try to be constructive about it. I should read more. Any book recommendations? I like things like Extremely Loud and Incredibly Close and Middlesex. I read a few books last summer, I should do the same thing again.

So, in my spare time, I'm a journalism student. Lately, I've been wondering "can I be an intern at High Times or Cannabis Culture?" I even had a dream I went to a type of Stoner Temp Agency and they had candy bowls filled with red Starbursts and a lobby with work from 'renowned stoners.' If only such a place existed!

I should be studying, I'm not. I can't motivate myself. I can't get up. I just want to eat. Watch TV. Be a little empty. I don't care about my exam tomorrow. I don't have to be in class til 2 p.m. so I can reasonably put it off til morning, right?

Tuesday, April 28, 2009

BLUNTS.



hahaha, it used to say BUMP, now it says BLUNTS. Win. Painted by a lovely, lovely, artistic, friend of mine.

Monday, April 27, 2009

Episode 2.




Today on the T ride home, I was listening to "We Used to Vacation" by Cold War Kids on my iPod and the lady next to me tapped my shoulder and said, "Your music is too loud," I said sorry and did absolutely nothing about it, I just put it on the ...And You Will Know Us By the Trail of Dead CD so it would be even louder/more aggressive. I had headphones on, so there's no way I could have been any more of a bother to her than the crying baby next to us, or the sparks and sounds of the train.

Who has a reasonable expectation of quiet on the T? Wtf. Get over yourself.

/End Rant.

Sunday, April 26, 2009

Short and Sweet.. I hope.

Alright, so I'm smokin a bowl and should be reading for class but whatever. I'm on my last little nug of the 1/8th I bought last week. A little anxious about it, I'll prolly invest in a $20 sack or something, just so I can get through all this studying. I have a 10 page paper on the gay rights movement and it's progress over the last 10 years. Only my yuppie college would assign a paper like this.

I've also been smoking a lot to make being at home bearable. My 2 of my 3 roommates have taken it upon themselves to attempt to make every moment of my home life miserable (Note to self: never run out of contact solution again). Hence why updatings been a bit shaky lately. I just haven't (willingly) been home.

Anyways, stoner ramblings sorry, New York is getting close to legalizing medicinal marijuana. I will like New York (and I really need to go for a real visit to the city, I've never been there for more than 24 hours) a lot more than I currently do. They will prove to me they have good sense. Read about it here: http://www.buffalonews.com/home/story/647328.html

That's all I got for now, I'm exhausted. I worked an 8 hour shift today at the new bookstore-cafe- that's-really-the-same-cafe-i-used-to-work-at-which-will-not-be-named-either. Yay stoned hyphenation!

Wednesday, April 22, 2009

Oh I'm on a roll.

LIFE IS SO MUCH BETTER WHEN YOU SMOKE WEED.

As I typed that, I realized I left my bag at home and won't smoke tonight. Fuck. Whatever, I can't take a bag to work anyways. While in line at the DD (Dunkin' Donuts, yo) my boyfriend told me he likes me better when I'm high, he said I'm "smiliey and giggly." I must seem really depressed and stressed all the time. That's bad. But really, why don't more people see it? Weed is my medication.

Anyways, today is a busy day for me, I hope I survive. I will leave you all with a list of the most successful potheads...



Read it here: http://coedmagazine.com/2009/02/06/the-10-most-successful-potheads-on-the-planet-cool-enough-to-admit-it/

Tuesday, April 21, 2009

UHM FIRST AND FOREMOST (love that phrase):

SONIC IS COMING TO MASSACHUSETTS!!!


Read more here: http://blogs.townonline.com/massmarkets/2009/04/21/sonic-makes-noise-in-peabody-with-its-entrance-into-massachusetts/

Life for stoners in Mass. is going to change dramatically. I hope it opens in the summer so I can get high and visit on a little day trip.

Secondly, Austinites,



Participate in the Texas Cannabis Crusade!

That is all for today, as I'm pretty sure I woke up stoned... who knows.

Monday, April 20, 2009

Happy 420!



Today is a fucking beautiful day! Peace, love, and grass all around!

I hope you all spend a little time with Mary Jane today and relax on this Northern holiday! I could honestly give two shits about the marathon, lol. Whatever. I think the Queen bee and I are gonna spend some time at the Esplanade and get smoothies! It's not very warm outside, and I have to work tomorrow morning (womp womp, hello money!!!!) but I am just so happy it's 420 and that it's almost May!

Spring is the best season everrrrrrrrrrrr. And I need to eat breakfast, wtf do I do!?

Thursday, April 16, 2009

What a day.

It's only 2:42 p.m. and I've already experienced a whirlwind of emotions.

First and foremost, I want to say that if you have friends who don't approve of you smoking, don't like you when you smoke, or criticize you in any way for smoking: Get rid of them now. It'll save you the time, the effort, and a bunch of bullshit. True friends accept you for who you are, no matter what you smoke! I wish I would have known that, and maybe saved myself some shitty situations.



Second, let's talk about marijuana and mental health. As most of you know, I have anxiety issues and love my Xanax, but before Xanax and all those other bullshit (and expensive) pharmaceuticals, all I did was smoke weed. When I tried a short stint with Celexa and Effexor all I did was black out when I drank, want to drink a bunch, make poor decisions and throw myself into a mental mania (faux, often dangerous extreme 'high').

When I smoke weed, I'm happy, giggly, and hungry. I can tackle one issue at a time, instead of getting overwhelmed about my massive to-do list, and can get through a 12 hour day like a fucking champ. And finally, after years of arguing with shrinks and therapists, science is starting to back me up.

While not anxiety related this is a great article: http://www.cannabisculture.com/v2/content/marijuana-mental-health
I don't understand how so many people can be denied access to less harmful medicines from the Earth. This study (http://www.jci.org/articles/view/25509/version/1) is a great study and I've pulled out some of the highlights from the medically pedantic text to share:

The graph from above is from the study and kind of hard to understand, but if you'd like to take the time to read a bit of the study, it's interesting.

"We observed here that chronic administration of high, but not low, doses of HU210 exerts anxiolytic- and antidepressant-like effects... In summary, since adult hippocampal neurogenesis is suppressed following chronic administration of opiates (20), alcohol (21), nicotine (22), and cocaine (23), the present study suggests that cannabinoids are the only illicit drug that can promote adult hippocampal neurogenesis following chronic administration. Increased hippocampal neurogenesis appears to underlie the mechanism of anxiolytic- and antidepressant-like effects produced by a high dose of chronic HU210 treatment. The opposing effects of high doses of acute and chronic cannabinoids, together with the anxiolytic-like effects caused by a low dose of cannabinoids, may finally explain discrepancies in the clinical study literature regarding the effects of cannabinoid on anxiety and depression."

HU210 is a synthetic cannabinoid, FYI. I find it really funny that HIGH doses and not low produce these effects, adequately explaining why my tolerance is so high, and why some people may feel paranoid with small doses. Neurogenesis is also the way in which neurons are created in the brain, populating a growing brain. It basically makes your brain grow. Maybe thats why so many non-smokers are so ignorant...

Tuesday, April 14, 2009

DRUGGGGGGGSSS.



Lately, it's come to my attention how big of a problem heroin is here in Boston. Lots of episodes of Intervention have taken place either here or in Gloucester or Worcester and just the other day I was riding the subway out to my boyfriends, and this guy who was BLATANTLY high on herion (slightly comatose, looks like they're falling asleep, slow/slurred speeech) and falling all over me.

And as the price of marijuana continues to rise, the price of heroin is often less than a 6 pack of beer. What kind of crap is that? Heroin involves some pretty intense chemical processes (opium > morphine > heroin) while basic marijuana just needs a sunny corner, some fertilizer, and enough space.

Legislators, congressmen, and policy makers need to get their heads out of my grass and onto the streets to get heroin, a DANGEROUS drug, commonly and easily overdosed on, off the streets and users into rehab. Or something. I dunno, but this is bullshit.



Next Post: Oh-so-startling research linking cannabis as an effective antidepressant/anti-anxiety treatment. I TOLD YOU, SHRINKS!!!!

Monday, April 13, 2009

Wake and Bake with Snoop Dogg.

Grab a honey game or a strawberry philly and join Snoop for a luscious blunt. It's almost 420, tell me what you're up to and how you're celebrating!!

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Tuesday, April 7, 2009

A little something for my Texas Tokers...

TOMORROW!!


(Not medical, but it was the only pic I could find, haha)

"HB 902, the decriminalization bill introduced by Rep. Dutton, has been scheduled for a hearing this Wednesday, April 8th. If you are interested in sharing your testimony with the Criminal Jurisprudence Committee, please take some time today and tomorrow to put your opinions on this bill into words.

The hearing is scheduled for 2 pm in room E-2028 in our State Capitol Building.
Remember, HB 902 would reduce the penalty of possession of under ONE OUNCE to a class C misdemeanor. The penalty for 1-2 ounces would remain the same. The bill also addresses issues regarding occupational driver’s licenses. read the full text of the bill HERE.

The Texas Legislature only meets for 140 days every other year. Similar bills have been introduced over the last few sessions, with no success. Please help us ensure that this bill receives the attention it deserves by attending this hearing and offering your testimony."


I hope you guys go out and make yourselves heard, especially those of you who are on financial aid, because this can seriously effect you. I f you're caught with marijuana as the laws stand today, you could lose all federal/state financial aid. It's law that if you are convicted on drug charges you notify the FAFSA and typically, they will revoke your aid.

Get out there!!

Sunday, April 5, 2009

I love when random decisions pay off.




THIS STUFF IS THE SHIT. Seriously, so easy. Make some rice, microwave this shit and put it on top. It's delicious and spicy. I bought it at the little indian food market in the square and I'm going to buy a bunch more.


That is all.

Wednesday, April 1, 2009

Catching up with our fellow tokers.

I had a pretty good time interviewing Mike Cann from mikecann.net for my reporting class so I thought I'd post it here. Take some time to read it and educate yourself and about marijuana reform and get involved!



Tell me a little about yourself?
Basically, I’m a 30-something year old financial professional. I grew up in the North shore in Byfield, Mass. I do music shows, I’m on the MASSCANN/NORML board of directors, and I book the music for the annual Freedom Rally [on the Boston Common].

How did you get involved with MASSCANN/NORML?
Probably a lot like other people; reading High Times growing up and going to the Freedom Rally. I went to a couple of the first years they had it when I was in college and I ended up coming back. I was helping a friend of mine who was in a band trying to book their band for the Freedom Rally and I just ended up in a meeting and decided I wanted to help out and I’ve been doing it ever since. Basically, what we do is we try to let people know what going on with marijuana reform and how they can help. With MASSCANN/NORML we started out with 50 non-binding decriminalization and medical marijuana initiatives and we won every one.

What does marijuana reform mean to you?
I think the big thing is to make sure that people aren’t arrested is number one. It’s always been the big issue for me that peoples lives get ruined over one joint. I think bigger than that, the drug war itself and the crime, it’s just to make the world a better place. One of the biggest things I try to bring to this is that we’ve always focused on people who are users of marijuana which is fine and great, but there are also a majority out there that don’t use marijuana that also support us, and that’s what you saw with the vote [on Question 2] is that of the 65% that voted for marijuana decriminalization and at least half of those that voted for it are non-users. I think that he war on marijuana users and the drug war effects all people whether you use or not and I think that’s a big message I’m trying to get out there.

Marijuana is often referred to as a ‘gateway’ drug, do you think this is a misnomer?
Absolutely, I smoked pot but I never did heroin, I never had a problem with any of those other things. Obviously there’s always that one person, but that person also drank milk, and I’m sure they drank beer first and we don’t try to outlaw beer cause of other drugs like heroin. It doesn’t make any sense and scientifically it is shown it is not a gateway [drug].

Are you a medical or casual user?
Both. I’m a former athlete; I was an amateur wrestler. I’ve got a bad back. I probably needed surgery about 10 years ago and I didn’t go for it. I’ve just been dealing with Ziatica. I’ve always enjoyed it too so I’m not going to say I don’t enjoy it or even use it. Even if I was pain free tomorrow, I still think I’d smoke pot.

How long have you been using?
[Laughter] I tried it when I was in high school but wasn’t really a smoker because I was an athlete. I pretty much stayed away from it, you know, I tried it quite a few times in high school, but I never really was a regular user until I got to college. I used to get these migraines, and I lived next to a kid who always had it and if I had a migraine I’d talk to him and it would work and I discovered that it not only work but I liked it and enjoyed it.

How does pot affect you?
Not much, the biggest thing for me is if I’m out 5 or 6 hours at a show, working and I come home and I can’t sleep cause my back hurts I have two choices; I can take a Tylenol, which will work, or I can smoke a joint. And if I smoke a joint, for me, it makes me feel better than if I take a Tylenol cause I know that my father has the same condition as me and he just had a liver transplant and I’m convinced its from 25 years of taking Tylenol. Doctor’s tell you, “Yeah, this is going to kill your liver.” For me personally, it allows me to moderate my Tylenol use. In general, it doesn’t do too much for me, especially compared to the drugs they wanted to put me on.

What negative effects have you seen from marijuana use?
The big thing is that it’s illegal; so therefore, by people using it in an illegal market it creates black markets and I think there’s some violence associated with that, so that’s one negative. I also think anything you smoke is generally not a good thing so obviously smoking cannabis may not be the best thing for your lungs and may not be the best thing health-wise. Obviously, I think some people have problems with substances whether it’s chocolate or alcohol or tobacco or marijuana. For some people, it take’s over their lives like anything else so I think like any other substance out there that people like and enjoy, for some people, it’s an issue.

What’s up with Scott Brown and his re-criminalization tirade?
Yeah... yeah...[laughter] Scott Brown is a Republican in the state and is supporting a bill that would fine anyone $1000 for marijuana in the car. It doesn’t matter if you’re using it or not, whether you’re sober or not, medical user or not, it’s basically a blanket law that would charge $1000 and if it’s not paid then it would be a criminal offense. Which to me is de facto re-criminalization. A lot of people are not going to be aware of it and not be able pay $1100 in fines within the 30 days they’re probably going to require if this becomes law. There are a lot of us out there who don’t like it so we decided to stage a protest next Tuesday night at his next campaign fundraiser.

What positive things can you see coming with the approval of medical marijuana?
The big thing is someone like Marcy Duda, who’s a grandmother, who’s been testifying for years at the state house to be able to get legal marijuana. Marcy has a brain aneurisms and she testified last year that she had two sisters with the same medical condition, neither one of them used medical marijuana and both of them are dead right now and she credits marijuana with saving her life. Someone like her would be able to either have someone grow some plants for her or grow them herself. That would be the big thing, that someone like Marcy would have access to medicine and not have to go to the black market, not be at risk for arrest and be able to get good cannabis to help her relive her daily pain.

Of legalization?
Ending the black market, taking corruption out of our government. I’ve become more conservative as I’ve grown older and people don’t necessarily assume that being a marijuana reform advocate. I think that’s a big thing you get from law and order people, is that there’s no respect for the law, and there’s a reason why there’s no respect for the law. The law is unjust and it doesn’t make any sense. When you put these illegal drug gangs out of business and at the same time, get rid of the biggest law out there that people don’t respect, I think that people might actually start to respect the law again and get much more good will for police out there.

How will Americans react to marijuana regulation?
I think that most Americans would be fine with it. I think even the ones that pose against us right now, once it happens I think they will be totally happy with it just like they were when alcohol prohibition was repealed. It’s been proven--and this is another big thing I like to being up, especially with people who are against changing the law-- other count and other states, if you look at Amsterdam, have lower use among adults and youth because its regulated. You look at neighboring countries that have laws similar to the U.S. and they have higher rates of use. It’s the same thing in America in the states where it’s decriminalized, we’re not seeing higher rates of use, and we’re actually seeing lower rates of use. When you legalize it there’s kind of a taboo factor, outlaw factor, that goes away and it’s not as exciting anymore.

What types of obstacles and opposition are reformers facing with these bills?
Our biggest obstacles are the politicians themselves. Every single year we’ve had hearings on this and we bring out a lot of medical users from Massachusetts to speak at these and the last year, for instance, the bill actually passed the committee, we had a vote on committee level, and we won the vote and it should have gone to a full house vote but it never did. The politicians are too scared to be on the record one way or another, they’re too scared to make the 65% (which is more like 80% for medical), they’re worried about making them upset by voting against medical. On the other hand, they’re worried about small percentage like police union, jails, the district attorney, on the other side are worried about making those folks upset that also fund their campaigns. We’re kind of stuck where we’re really trying to get the politicians to let us have a vote on medical marijuana and we think it will win if it comes to a vote with a full house but that’s our biggest obstacle, to actually get them to allow us to get this to come to a vote.

What’s the best way to get involved with marijuana reform?
I would say if you’re a college student, start or join a NORML chapter or student policy chapter. Also, if you’re just regular person, same thing, I would look out for NORML chapter and probably attend the meetings to see how you can help out there. Beyond that, I would say there are a lot of things you can do. Whether you show up to the Scott Brown rally for instance, showing up with a video camera and recording it, putting it up on YouTube, writing about it. I always tell people that it really depends on who you are what you want to do. There are so many ways you can get involved; it’s about taking the way will keep you interested.

Monday, March 30, 2009

PROTEST!! TOMORROW!!

Tomorrow, at 222 Columbus Ave., Boston, MA., outside the minstral, Mike Cann, MassCann, and NORML, along with a good heap of stoners, supporters, and marijuana users, will be out protested the recriminalization tirade led by Senator Scott Brown.

Come out and show your support! Even if you can't come out, show your support by 'attending' the facebook event, here: http://www.facebook.com/event.php?eid=52880589409&ref=ts Just getting the numbers up generates publicity for a good cause!

It's really exciting to see marijuana gaining a greater presence on Capitol Hill, it's long overdue.

Wednesday, March 25, 2009

Exciting!

In my infinite stoner awesomeness, I got about 4 people in my reporting class to do a series with me on marijuana and the current changes in legislature here in Massachusetts. I'm so excited about this you have no idea. Tonight, I'll be interviewing Mike "Cann" of mikecann.net about the issues with Senator Scott Brown who's trying to essentially recriminalize it.

There's a protest scheduled, but it may be cancelled pending his support for medicinal marijuana. Wait and see as this story develops!

For now, this is neato.

Saturday, March 21, 2009

100/Big News.

This is my 100th post! I've been blogging here since last summer and it's been a ton of fun. I have 8 people following me on google reader and according to my site tracker, readers all over the world, nearly 200 of you per week! I just wanted to take a moment to say thanks to all of my readers. I wish I could smoke a fatty with all of you, but uhm, you know, I'm broke and lost my job and shit. But if you wanna smoke me out I'd be happy to accompany you :)



Now, for some big news! Massachusetts has two bills, one in the house and one in the senate for medical marijuana and for the legalization of marijuana! Now, who knows if they'll pass, but this is a big step in the right direction.

For those of you in Massachusetts, There's going to be a protest on the 31st of this month protesting Senator Scott Brown's Marijuana RE-criminalization Bill, facebook event here if you're interested: http://www.facebook.com/event.php?eid=61388093483, I have class, or otherwise I'd be there, but you all should consider getting high and going. Could be fun?

Here are the links to the bills if you want to read them, personally I think anxiety should be covered in the medical bill, and the $150-250 tax per ounce lowered, but it's a start.

http://www.mass.gov/legis/bills/house/186/ht02/ht02160.htm

http://www.mass.gov/legis/bills/senate/186/st01/st01801.htm

Wednesday, March 18, 2009

Should we be alarmed?


From Mikecann.net

Grit weed. What is it? Is it harmful?

Some are saying it's glass particles, some are saying it's food grade silica, others say it's a polymer of some sort. Either way, I don't want to smoke it and it's been making guest appearances across New England (New Hampshire, Quincy, MA), even here in Boston. The stuff in the picture above was sifted from a sack of grit weed, and it's still unknown exactly what it is, and if it's harmful, but I'm telling you, I wouldn't want to smoke it.

Even those of us up on our shit can still fall victim to this, as it gives the appearance of really nice trichomes. According to posters on the Noise Board (http://www.thenoiseboard.com/index.php?showtopic=203634) The tip off should be that's its very crystal-y, with a sandy texture and the smell is a bit off. Apparently, it's sprayed onto the buds post-harvest.

Would you smoke this if you bought it and noticed? Would the $50 or $60 be worth it to potentially fry your brain and lungs?

It's more than knowing your dealer, check your shit, kids!

Tuesday, March 17, 2009

Really?




http://www.mapinc.org/norml/v09/n303/a02.htm

"A man who grew marijuana plants on federal forest land was sentenced to life in prison in a Gainesville courtroom Thursday.

Andrew N. Cox, 45, of Blairsville was subject to federal sentencing guidelines that mandate a life sentence for someone with two prior drug trafficking convictions, U.S. Attorney's spokesman Patrick Crosby said.

The federal prison system does not have parole."


WHAT. Like, okay, I get it, it's against the law, but life without the possibility of parole?! RAPISTS AND EVEN MURDERERS GET OFF FOR LESS THAN THAT.

This is an outrage, and a mockery of the American justice system. Without the two prior convictions he would have served only 10 years. It's really sad to see out-dated, politically crooked legislation from the fucking 1800s ruining the lives of millions today. And sure-- he had a choice, blah, blah but fucking George Washington grew pot on what I'm sure is today federal forest land (what does that even mean?). Two semesters ago I did a term paper on the role of hemp in colonial America, and it's staggering how much it has to offer and how dramatically it could decrease our dependency on foreign resources.

This really grinds my gears!!

Monday, March 16, 2009

xanax.



I have that someone, and I am often too embarrased by my anxieties to not sprint for a Xanax (or two).

One day at a time I suppose. I need a nice toke.

Sunday, March 15, 2009

Recession Depression.




Yesterday started out wonderful. I spilled my heart and it went pretty well, had some amazing sex, had a wonderful shower, and then...

I fucking got laid off.

Not only does this mean no more shopping or spending money or free coffee (bye bye lovely double tall breve cinnamon dolce latte's), but this means no more weed until I can afford it again. This is really devastating to me. I don't know how to handle life well without weed.

I kind of wanted to cry when my boss told me, but before it could really set in I took 2 Xanax. I went to lunch with the Italian and he even bought me a deep fried cupcake to cheer me up. I had him buy me a bottle of wine too and I self medicated for a bit. I fell asleep at some point after we killed the bottle and woke up at 7 p.m. feeling a whole lot better. I feel so lucky to have so many amazing people in my life.

Unfortunately, my Queen Bee is thinking it's time for her to make the move to England and start her life there. I can't say I blame her, if I had the money I definitely would too. It really makes me want to move to the UK for grad school though. I want to travel and escape this United States of America bullshit.

After catching up with the Bee and a few friends and smoking some near medicinal Colorado dro I went to an Ides of March party. It was all the Italian's friends but it went pretty well. Shots of Grey Goose all night long, haha. Win.

I think I need a nap. I'm feeling really weird today.

Tuesday, March 10, 2009

Want to regenerate some brain cells?

Eat healthy, exercise, love and... smoke pot?



Yup. During a lecture on revitalizing your life Dr. Dean Ornish suggest smoking pot. Gee, who would have though that being high and super chill and giggling could increase your brain power?

Sunday, March 8, 2009

Crampy Cramp Cramp.

One of the times I always try to have weed handy is when I'm on my period. I never have any Tylenol or Advil and weed always makes me feel better. It's my every-ailment cure, from cramps to hangovers, I swear by it. Apparently so did Queen Victoria, and a bunch o other women in the 1800s.

Obviously, as I've been trying not to smoke, I don't have weed. And ugh, my ovaries are killin' me. I'm laying on the couch resisting the urge to run to the bathroom and cut my ovaries out with an Xacto knife. That bad. Seriously.

I've been cramping all day. I took a long walk from Mass Ave and Columbus to an old flame's place in Beacon Hill, it was a fucking gorgeous day in Boston. It was nice to see him, we smoked a j and he gave me my flask which he found in the depths of his freezer. I was so happy to see it! I thought it was long gone, I lose so much shit.



So here's to today, my flask, and the cocktease that is Spring. Cause today it was 60°F and tomorrow it's going to snow!

Thursday, March 5, 2009

Spring Break Broke.

I hate saying bye to people. I know it's just for a little while, but I just hate the act of it, it's kind of awkward, sometimes somber, not at all excited feeling. I said bye to the two biggest people in my life right now, and at the same time, realized how big a part of my life they both are. Weird how different things are from last semester.

I got on the train back home super high and super nostalgic/complacent. I put on my "Oh, Life" playlist on the T ride home and was kind of overwhelmed by emotions. I kind of hated it, but I just let it happen. By Porter Square I was fine.

Anyways, after a nice morning saying farewell to the Italian I headed over to day bye to the Queen Bee. We booked a fucking tulip joint. Epic. Me, Bee, and two of our good friends rolled one and got so high. It was the one final hurrah before she had to book it to the UK. I'm still high. Ready for a bowl to keep the momentum up though.


I need couch time.

Wednesday, March 4, 2009

Fucking Fail.

Okay, so my Spring Break starts today at 4 p.m. I'm going to try not to smoke until my boyfriend gets back from London next Wednesday because I realllllly need to book it.

I just got ANOTHER C in my reporting class. I CANNOT be doing this bad. I also just realized I left my folder at home so I have NONE of my Copyediting worksheets or my book for that class. Ugh. So, to bring up my grades, I am going to (attempt to):

-Do the extra credit paper for my Media Law and Ethics class.
-Study for my Copyediting midterm
-Do 2 articles to replace my shitty one I just got a C on, and to make up the one I missed. (Maybe 3 even, or a video package.)

Why am I doing so horribly? I'm not smoking THAT much, I mean, on the daily of course, but ugh. I'm in an awful place right now. Surrounded by anxieties and depending on weed and Xanax to get me through. My therapist wants me to start journaling again. I'm going to try. While things are okay in life, I just can't seem to keep my anxieties in check. I had a panic attack yesterday, mostly because my roommates are making me miserable.

Yet here I am updating instead of paying attention in my Social Movements class. Awesome. What the fuck is my problem? Anyone else have these issues?

Monday, March 2, 2009

SNOWDAY!

I woke up this morning, got a little high to aid in the whole picking-out-clothes game, and booked it to grab a latte and get on the T and WTF I get to Park Street and find out SCHOOL IS CANCELLED. I get on a red line train back to Alewife. Ugh. Being high helped, I just rode it back and came home and did some work.

So on the upside, today was a snow day. Really, it was epic trying to get to school this morning and it's still snowing here and there. We've already gotten 10 inches. On top of 50 in. earlier in the season. This is RIDICULOUS. I had a great day though, met a friend for lunch, got my eyebrows done and smoke at the Queen Bee's.

However, nothing is better than being high and having a cup of tea. My favorite tea has a little stoner story behind it. See, I used to drink this tea when I was dating the Peruvian drug dealer about 6 months ago. I joke it's the one good thing I got from him (that and I got really good at rolling joints). Anyway, it's delicious and sweet and helps your breathing! Always good to combat the hazards of smoking with a little R&R.



Now, back to the bowl, baby.

Wednesday, February 25, 2009

BRB Moving to the West Coast

http://www.sacbee.com/breaking/story/1646399.html

California is the first state to have a bill proposed to LEGALIZE and TAX marijuana for those 21+. Ingenious. They're projecting almost a billion dollars in revenue from this idea, and I mean, while I lost all faith in California when they fucked up Prop 8, and this probably won't pass, I'm still really happy to see it in legislature.

It would be awesome if other states would follow suit. Especially Massachusetts. I think we're at the point where if we really want to succeed with repairing this recession we should definitely legalize and tax the lovely maryjane.

Thoughts?

Tuesday, February 24, 2009

Fail.

I keep forgetting to update. I had a major bout with anxiety/depression last week, but I'm back on top and feeling better. My shrink thinks its my drinking/smoking. Fail.

I smoked before I went today and he said I seemed "distant." I made up some bullshit about my dad and being tired and I guess he bought it. I dunno. I think the guy is full of shit.

In weed world, not much is new. I'm still nursing the same 2.4 grams I bought last week. Pretty nice stuff. Unfortunately with the economy the way it is and me being broke as shit I can't buy very often. Thankfully, I babysit Thursday and will be able to buy for the weekend AND put some in my savings. How fucking awesome right?

Last night was hilarious. I dunno how you can get away with not learning how to cook frozen American food when you're an American citizen but the Italian somehow did it. He was high and put the whole bag in the oven and basically, they wouldn't cook cause there were too many on the cookie sheet. I basically had to teach him Fundamentals of American Frozen Cooking 101.

Epic Fail. But a funny one with a happy ending if you know what I mean. :) haha

Tuesday, February 17, 2009

What's the science behind it?



"Hold it in!!!!!!" Really, how many times have you heard that? Does holding the smoke in even help your high?


WikiAnswers (I couldn't find a more credible source) says:

THC is absorbed in the lungs within a few seconds. There is no need to hold in the hit any longer than 5 seconds. If you've ever heard that you need to hold the hit in as long as you can, its false. Back in the 60's smokers believed you need to hold the hit to get high, but due to recent scientific studies, it has been debunked.

If you hold the smoke in your lungs any longer than 5 seconds, your only holding in the tars and toxins, and not getting any higher.


SO THERE YOU GO. Mexcian sweat is pointless, but hey, you learn something new everyday! Also, I'm going to try to stop being such a twat and update more often, I know you tokers are getting antsy!

Monday, February 9, 2009

Monday Struggles.

Today looks like this:

9-9:50AM Counseling
10AM-3:45PM Class
6:30-11PM Work
11:30PM-12:00AM Shower/eat
12:00AM-3AM Get high and do homework

All with this torrential cough that I can't seem to get rid of. I'm sure smoking doesn't help, but I just can't not smoke. I realized that today at my counseling session.

"I can't--don't want to quit smoking pot." I dunno why that has been so hard to say to therapists before but I'm finally saying it. Surprisingly, no ones calling the cops on me yet. As my therapist put it, pot is a 'diminishing return' and that it won't work forever. It's worked for 3 years now, will it stop? And if/when it does, what the fuck am I going to do to control my anxiety? I think therapy just stressed me out more. Or maybe it was my bullshit horoscope this morning.

"It's a no-win day, do your best and don't look back."

How fucking encouraging. I'm ready for that bowl now.

Tuesday, February 3, 2009

Tuesday Blues.

I'm going to smoke in 3.5 hours. I dunno if I can make it that long. It's been days.

I'm really excited though. Maybe that will make this unbearably long class worthwhile. It never is. My barracha bonita is next to me... slightly wasted. It's fabulous. She pulls it off you can't even tell. Well, until you look at her face.

Only 3 more hours now... On the upside, I got the new Lily Allen CD. It's fucking great.

Speaking of music, STONEROO, I mean the BONNAROO 2009 festival lineup was released. AND OH MY GOD! OKKERVIL, PHISH, BEASTIE BOYS, SNOOP DOGG, ERYKAH BADU! SO MUCH STONERNESS. It's going to be epic. I'm going to need to take like a half down with me and like 10 boxes of wine. My roommate said she wants to go so hopefully it will happen, but I'm going to HAVE to save up. And I'm not getting much work, soooooo yeah. I may dip into my savings if I can't make it happen otherwise.

Wish me luck over the next 3 hours. I need to attempt to pay attention in class. Fail.

Sunday, February 1, 2009

More Kanye Love.



The obsession continues, this time with the Godfather of fashion, Karl Lagerfeld.

I haven't been high in days. I'm freaking. I just keep reveling in this image. Amazing.

Monday, January 26, 2009

That's it.




I'm out of pot. And I have no money (Well, I have some money, but I need to pay my bills). I knew this time was going to come.

I smoked the last of my stash last night with the Italian and ordered the most amazing/disgusting hawaiian pizza from Domino's. They have this ingenious little tracker that tells you exactly where your pizza is and who the fuck is handling it.



The Italian was amazed by this little piece of American ingenuity. Or maybe he was just high. Either way, we watched that tacker like a hawk and when it arrived we demolished that shit in like 10 minutes flat. Not bad, eh?

For this, I think Domino's deserves a Toker's Choice Award despite the fact that their pizza isn't really that good, but when you're high, who cares right?

Saturday, January 24, 2009

Some day.

My life long dream is to be a fashion reporter, smoke mad weed, and go to fun parties after fashion week shows. Maybe travel a little.

And If I happen to have an entourage like Kanye's, that would be sick.



Speaking of fashion, there's a 60 Minutes with Anna Wintour in the works. Wintour is the editor in chief of Vogue and is rumored to be falling from the top of the fashion totem pole. She's a fierce bitch.

Anyways, still on the last 1/8th I bought. Which is good, considering how much I wake and bake. But I guess wake and bake is pretty much all I do, because at night I tend to drink like a fish, or put my nose where it doesn't belong, but that's another story.

I'm super high and seeing that Kanye picture is probably going to inadvertently inspire my outfit tonight. Damnit. But they do look fly. Christ, I'm blown. First high of the day always doest that.




Also, can I just please take a moment to say how big of a difference good rolling papers make in the formation of beautiful, perfect joints? Seriously, throw away your jokers, and hit up the headshop for a pack of OCB rolling papers. Much better.

Wednesday, January 21, 2009

Spring 2009.

I just woke up, it's 6:49 am and I don't need to be up until 8:30 am. I think a nap will be in order later this afternoon. I think I'm going to get up and watch the news in a bit and smoke a bowl.


It's been really nice reconnecting with friends over drugs and drinks. I love the first week of school, especially since this week my school week is 2 days long. Today is my long day. I have a good feeling about it. And about this semester. Things are shaping up and unfolding pretty nicely if I do say so myself. I am very happy.

Yesterday I woke up at the Queen Bee's and wake and baked with a month old bag of shake while she was in class. haha, fail. I owe her a joint. It was lovely, she came home shortly after and we made a visit to blow mountain. Then I bought a notebook with a pirate ship on it. Hopefully it will make me want to take notes. Wish me luck on my first real day of school. Yesterday I had my night class and it just about killed me.



The day before we all woke up at the Queen Bee's epically hungover. The wife was hungover all day long. It was ridiculous. I was the lame ass who slept hers off and failed to go to the airport to meet my Miami Princess.

The running pot tally for this year to date is now a half, and a quarter and an eighth. So, about .875 ounces.

Saturday, January 17, 2009

Back in the Big B.

I've been home for a couple of days now. It's so wonderful. Fucking cold, but wonderful. On my way down US Airways (most un-stoner friendly airline everrrrr) over-sold my flight and ended up giving me a direct flight from Houston to Boston that came in 2 hours earlier, along with a FREE ROUND TRIP TICKET TO ANYWHERE IN THE CONTINENTAL US! Looks like I may just go to Bonnaroo this year after all.

Yesterday I went to an HBO screening of Flight of the Conchords. I was late and missed most of the show, fail. So a friend from Corpus and I went to my dealers house and smoked a joint. It was amazing and I was so high. We peaced and went to eat at Popeye's like total stoners. It was hilarious.

Tonight I'm going to a show with a lovely friend of mine, and tomorrow we are smoking cali dro. I may die, haha. EPIC PARTY TOMORROW. My loves will finally all be in one place and it's going to be amazing.

More to come later, now I must paint my nails this amazing blue/black color I got at HEB.

Wednesday, January 14, 2009

Reader Contribution.

Last week one of my lovely readers, Gee, found a fat little sack outside her apartment complex and decided I should have it. Who knew my readers loved me this much? haha, I met up with her last week and we went to this great little Vietnamese cafe and market where she proceeded to get me addicted to these amazing puppies:



I went back and bought 3 packs the other day and I'm gonna go buy some more before I leaveg. So with Gee's contribution, I'm up to about a half and a quarter for this year. I suck at math.. let's see that's 3/4ths right? Dang.

Today was the day. I got tested! They had to draw blood again because my last HIV swab 6 months ago was reactive (followed by a negative blood test). It was nerve wrecking! So after I got amazingly high with an old friend. We went to Sakura for a nice hibachi style dinner. IT WAS AMAZING. I came home and napped on the couch with my mama.

Back to Boston Thursday morning. Here's to a new and equally fabulous semester!

Saturday, January 10, 2009

What. the. fuck.

I volunteered to pick up the cake for my grandma's birthday party...

BIG MISTAKE. IT WAS FUCKING HUGE AND I AM HIGH AND I WAS SO SCARED I WAS GOING TO FUCK IT UP.

But I didn't. Hell yeah.

Thursday, January 8, 2009

Six Days Later.

And 8 days into the new year and my running total for the year is half an ounce. I must say though, this Texas schwag puts me to sleep. I've been taking lots of naps.

I smoked at the beach today, it was great. Windy and kind of cool, but overall great. I'm going to spend most of tomorrows record high day by the pool laying out. NEED SUN. SO MUCH. Just like I needed to see Sandy. Who looks amazing, btw. I've been really happy catching up with old friends.

I've smoked in my moms car, in the backyard, on the beach, at my uncles and hot boxed a van. This is the high life for sure. I'm ready to go back to Boston. What was I thinking! I'm only enjoying being here knowing that everyone has yet to return to Boston. I'm really enjoying the sun, but I must admit, I do miss my snow and snuggling on the couch with a hot cup of tea.

7 days to go! I really need to save up some money to buy bud when I get home. I'm going to need it. Not much else to say. Nothing has changed here. If anything, the ghetto has crept into what used to be the South Side.

Time for movies and snuggles. I need a night off.

Friday, January 2, 2009

poke.

Six months ago, in the oppressive August sun of Texas I drove my moms old Chevy Blazer to the Planned Parenthood in the ghetto. I filled out my medicaid paper work (the only time it really pays to be lower-class latina) and wait in the familiar waiting room. I've been here so many times, and even regularly see old friends from high school here. I religiously get tested every 6 months.

And now, it's just about that time again. I'm getting tested Tuesday. Perhaps my resolution for 2009 should be to be a bit safer. I'm way too trusting sometimes. This is all on my mind because of my professor's book that I'm reading, the gay one, Boston Boys Club. It's really good but one of the characters is in the midst of an HIV scare. I cried when I read it. Thats not something to fuck with.

In August my pre-screening HIV swab came out reactive. They had to draw blood and I had to wait 7 days for the results. I was high most of the time, but it was so nerve wrecking. I had a gay uncle back in the early 90s who had HIV, he passed away from AIDs shortly after I turned 5. It's a scary, scary process, but the peace of mind, and the freedom when I found out I was negative was a greater reward.

So, in lieu of that, any serious partners I have this year, I'm insisting get tested, and I'm going to start being that girl with half a pack of Trojan's in her purse, just in case. Aside from that, my friends have had way too many pregnancy scares, and should probably just buy each other CVS gift cards for Plan B. I won't lie, I've taken it once that I can remember this semester. Next year I'm going to make it none, play it safe, follow the rules. I suggest you all do the same as well if you're sexually active. It's the best way to ensure a good new year and more to come.

Ok, there's my little Public Service Announcement, back to my book so I can start on my new one, This Is Your Brain on Music.

Thursday, January 1, 2009

Off with a bang.

I can't remember if I smoked today. I think I did. I smoked the last of the bowl I smoked before I fell asleep last night. I spent my midnight facebook chatting my best friend's little sister and nursing that little bowl.

Welcome, welcome, 2009. I attempted to start the year off right. I took a longggggg bath today and thought a little about what I want to do this year, things I want to accomplish. It's your pretty basic laundry list; write more, read more, love more, laugh a little more and drink just a bit less.

There's also that girlish fantasy the Queen Bee and I have been nurturing and entertaining about young love and the ignorant bliss it brings. It's been officially, a little less than two years that I've been single and just this semester that I've actually been playing the field. I'm not sure how to act anymore, you know. I'm going to my hometown in Texas for a little vacation and have a few little dates lined up. I think it will help me but Boston in perspective, because we all know it's pointless dating someone in Texas. This toker doesn't do long distance. I have my eye on a few prizes though, one specifically. I guess we'll have to wait and see what 2009 holds for me.

Until then, I need to do a load of laundry, pick up a new book and get to packing. I have no idea what to pack seeing as it's a bit warmer in Texas than here. I've been playing on Polyvore.com all day fucking around looking for warmer options because as of now, all I want to wear is black and grey. I dunno why I stress because my mom constantly makes fun of my clothes and well, my hometown isn't exactly Boston.


Another Set. by kidsmokes

Here I come Texas! Of course I put pot in there. Can't be in Texas without being high. Which brings us to my moral dilemma of the day. Do I see my dad when I go to Texas?

And I just can't decide if I want to keep being a bitter teenager or start to grow up and deal. Honestly, I don't want to see him. I think I have quite a mouthful to chew on already. I may choke. Speaking of chewing, I've eaten myself out of house and home. I'm so hungry all the time. Epic fail. I'm going to make popcorn.

Peace, Love, and Stonedness in 2009.